I Owe…

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…okay for the first time ever I owe the IRS.  Joy.  I was picturing thousands of dollars, but it is actually 300.00.  Not bad. 

Sigh…

My depression is getting worse.  I guess the meds need to be upped or I need to change something in my life.  My oldest is about to graduate from High School.  I am turning 40 in July.  My daughter is “troubled”.  Oh…and my marriage is…eh.  I seriously think I need to get some counseling.  Marriage, personal, whatever…I just need the help.  I literally feel NOTHING towards my husband and DESPAIR when I look at the kids.  I am losing my chicks and becoming old.  I have been trying really hard at making nice with the husband, but I think I will never feel the same way about him.  I don’t know…it could just be the emotions that I am feeling coming out.  My daughter is always angry about something and my son is overreacting most of the time.  I am worried that I didn’t do as well as I could have with them to prepare them for the real world.

Well…I need to fix my brain.  I have always felt the best while exercising.  I need to do something because this depression thing is the pits.  I cannot keep feeling like this….

I will exercise tonight…maybe go to the Gym and get complimented by the soldiers.  That always improves my mood…even if they are blowing smoke up my ass…

Later

Tax Time

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Lord have mercy…it is LOOMING!  I haven’t done the taxes yet because I am positive that we will owe money this year.  I know avoiding it or waiting until the last minute will not change anything I just do not want to be in a pissy mood. :)

I will do them when I get home from work.  Since it is Good Friday and it rains every Good Friday that I remember I won’t be running the streets.  It is the desert here…never rains until Monsoon season…the wind is kicking up.  Hurricane force winds (or seriously messed up hair winds) and I KNOW the rain is coming.  So tonight is Wii (OMG…so much fun!), seafood, and taxes.  JOY!

Eh…Another Brain Dump To Prevent A Migraine…

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I didn’t work out last night BUT I did make a great low carb meal for the whole family.  My job has me climbing stairs and running all over the place so I AM moving during the day.  I am not that upset about not working out last night.  Today I have climbed to the third floor about 6 times already.  My weight said 154.4 this morning. 

I told my husband I am interested in seeing just how small I can get.  He seems to think I will develop an eating disorder.  i disagree.  He is thinking that I am going to try to become skin and bones. I am looking to become fit (like Jillian Michaels) and soon to be FORTY.  I will shoot for 135 as my goal.   I have come close a couple of times but I have never quite made it to that number on the scale.  That is long term though…all I am looking to do is get back into the 140’s.

Everyone that needed to come in to work today took leave so I am really running around these barracks putting out different fires.  I am irritated and hungry.  A good sign that I am back on track is I am craving bacon, not chips or candy.  My cravings always clue me in about level of carbs I am consuming.  Thank goodness I have a kitchen here at work because right now…IT’S BACON TIME! 

I will try to get back on track with the exercise today.  I can tell the difference between 154.4 doing Taebo (smaller and toned body) and 154.4 with no exercise (just a little looser and muffin top tries to form in jeans).  I can still say that I am a successful low carb dieter because I have not gained back all of the weight that I have lost.  I’m just out of shape right now…

Okay, now I have work to do on my desk and bacon to cook in the kitchen…

Later!

I Guess

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…I waited long enough to start posting again.  The past months have been interesting indeed.  I am back on my diet (well eating better) because I did pick up about 10 pounds from the last time I took a picture in September.  The 10 pounds came from STRESS, ALCOHOL, NO EXERCISE, and…EATING WAY TOO MANY CARBS.  I am pretty lucky compared to my husband who was tipping the scales at 184 pounds (he is 5′7, wears a size 8 ring and a size 8 shoe. Kinda small framed if you know what I mean).  He was so distraught he asked me for a sleeping pill just to calm him down.  So yeah, I am back and it seems I am taking everyone with me on a diet.  Kellie and Lou are starting their own journeys.  I will ask her if she is going to start blogging again.  If she does I will link her to this site so we can keep an eye on each other.

I weighed myself this morning:

154.6

Dammit.  I am starting to think my body likes that weight.  Once I get back on track with Billy I will be back to my old self again.  I will once again post my thoughts and experiences with the diet, the workout, and my ever changing life.

Now…the past months I have discovered:

  • My thyroid levels were so out of whack they FINALLY decided to send me to a specialist.  The new medicine seems to help, but I am still cold all the time.
  • My blood pressure has decided to become high.  I mean really high.  I will be going back to the doctor in a couple of weeks to determine if I will need to take high blood pressure medication.
  • Pills….that seems to be what everyone wants to throw at me these days.  I was given a prescription for Prozac, Xanax, and Clozepam (I think they are HORSE TRANQUILIZERS.)

The reason for the pills?  Servere depresson and anxiety attacks brought on by my thryoid being way out of whack and STRESS.  My daughter decided that she would start having sex.  She also decided that it would be a good idea to purchase Percocet and Vicodin from other students and take them in school.  What the intelligent child didn’t realize that those TWO drugs (and if you are taking 7 at a time) numb you as well as put you to sleep.  If you mix them the effect is faster.  She almost overdosed.  She told me that she was sad all the time and didn’t want to feel anything.  Needless to say I lost my temper a bit with her and told her that she wouldn’t feel anything in a coma or dead.  7 fecking pills!  2 knock me on my ass and I outweigh her by 30 pounds.

We are on top of the pill issue she was having and moved on to getting her completely checked out at the GYN.  The child had no idea what entailed a Pap smear and a pipe check.  I had her tested for STDs, pregnancy, and everything I could think of.  I was there for her…it was hard but both of us made it through the exam. The child decided to declare that she doesn’t even get undressed to have sex with her boyfriend, so the exam was the worst.  I told her at least there weren’t any pictures of kittens on the ceiling to stare at…and why do they always put kitten posters on the ceiling?  I really don’t like staring at a kitty while my kitty is being looked at…but I digress.  Sorry.  It is the Prozac I think.  She is now on the pill (for her protection and peace of mind and because I am not ready to be a grandmother at 40) but she was also prescribed a antibiotic because she has Vaginitis.  Okay…I KNOW it isn’t a sexually transmitted disease.  She didn’t know that and assumed that the kid she decided to have sex with gave it to her.  Now she doesn’t want to be bothered by him or any other male right now.  I will let her know what happened does sometimes happen…eventually.  I have to say the pills have evened out her moods and she is a completely different person.  There is so much more I can say about Lauren…but those are the main things with her.

My son.  Sigh.  He is still looking to get a job.  He is graduating in May and wants to go to college.  So far nothing too bad.  Until one day I looked down at his hand where he “jammed” his pinkie.  What I saw didn’t look like a jam.  He broke the damned thing and was walking around for two weeks with it like that.  By the time I took my crooked fingered child to the doctor there was nothing they could do to help him.  The orthopedic surgeon told me when he goes back to see him (April 22nd) they will decide if they will do the operation and put pins in his finger.  When I asked the boy why in hell didn’t he say anything at all…he tells me…I’M A MAN, MA!

SIGH…WHATEVER.

My husband finally got everything squared away with the missed movement thing.  Many people got in trouble for the incident (not him though) but everything has settled and I am still in Arizona. Ever hear be careful what you wish for because you will probably get it.  He got what he wanted and now he hates his job.  I guess a Staff job isn’t what he really wanted.  Things are starting to pick up for him at work.  A TDY is on the horizon for him so maybe that will help his mood.  He was also selected as a Master Sgt (E8) and will hopefully get pinned before the Summer.  He is also complaining that he is fat but I also told him that eating carbs with beer tends to do that to a person.  Especially if they don’t exercise.  He will eventually see where I am coming from…I think.

I will be updating more because I am back on the program and my life has somewhat calmed down.  Or maybe I have calmed down.  Tonight I will do 90 minutes of Taebo….I’m sure I will have a comment on that one.

I miss coming here…maybe dumping the old brain along with some exercise will help me get off the Prozac…

Happy Belated EVERYTHING!!

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Just wanted to get that out of the way.  I have been MIA and really considering letting the blog go.  ALMOST!  As luck would have it I saw that I was automatically renewed for another year.  :)  I guess that is a sign for me to continue on with the blog and the healthy lifestyle.  So…I am bad…at least for another year!! 

I have lots of things to update…I guess that happens when you decide to fall of the Earth for a few months.

I am definitely back…

So…

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…the P90X workout made it here.  I have to take a fitness test in order to start the program.  i have been putting it off because I didn’t have a pullup station.  The doorways in my house are unually short (so I say) so I have been putting off starting.  I have no excuse anymore…the core trainer i ordered came in yesterday and I picked it up.  I have to get it put together but this is what it looks like:

The Multifunction VKR Core Trainer PT 600

Multifunction VKR Core Trainer PT600

 

Features:

 

- Thick Heavy Duty Box Style Cushions

 

- Chin Up / Pull Up Station With Inside And Wide Grip Positions

 

- VKR Station For Abdominal Vertical Knee Raises

 

- Dip Station To Strengthen Upper Body

 

- Non Slip Foot Grips Can Be Used As Push Up Bars

 :)

Um Yeah…that is a mouthful.  BUT I have no excuse to start doing the exercise program.  With that big assed thing mocking me…I’ll be looking like Jillian Michaels in no time.  :)

Hmmm

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…just got an email from the husband.  Apparently the S1 here is “not tracking” the paperwork that he put in two months ago.  They are the black hole for paperwork.  I guess that explains why the woman who needs it isn’t helping us…she doesn’t have the paperwork.  This happens all the time….what is the MOS for losing shit??  If there is one…everyone in this S1 has that MOS.  UNREAL!  We are still working this…more updates later..

I Love Food Network…

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…they send me recipes like this.  I am sure there is Sugar Free Honey somewhere in the world.  But you know what…it is a natural sugar.  I guess you could adjust this recipe to suit your needs…I have never stalled whenever I had something that had honey in it.  But that is just me…here is a rocking recipe for chicken wings:

Crisp Chicken Wings with Chili-Lime Butter

Recipe courtesy Tyler Florence

Show: Tyler’s UltimateEpisode: Ultimate Tailgate

4 pounds chicken wings
Extra-virgin olive oil
Kosher salt and freshly ground black pepper
8 tablespoons (1 stick) unsalted butter, softened
1 big, fat rounded tablespoon Thai red curry paste
1/4 cup honey
1/4 cup soy sauce
1 lime, halved
Chopped cilantro leaves, for garnish
 
Preheat the oven to 425 degrees F.Rinse the wings under cool water and pat dry. Put them in a bowl, drizzle with olive oil and season well with salt and pepper. Toss to coat with the seasoning. Then spread the wings out on a baking sheet and roast about 25 minutes until the skin gets crisp and brown, and the meat is tender.
While you wait, throw the butter, red curry paste honey and soy sauce into a blender. Season with salt and puree. Scrape into a big bowl. When the wings come out of the oven put add to the bowl with the curry butter. Squeeze the juice of the lime over the wings. Give it a toss and you’re done. Garnish with cilantro.

 

 

Had Fun…and other stuff…

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…and the teens decided to come with us.  It was great to get out of the house with the whole family.  I will miss the kids when they leave the nest.  i still see them as the babies that I brought home from the Hospital and they are talking about Proms. 

Ew.

I found a gray hair right at the top of my head today.  This is a determined gray hair because my hair is dyed BLACK.  :)  I guess that particular renegade follicle is trying to make me pull it…so it can bring back friends and relatives.  I don’t think so….I will be making another appointment to get my hair colored soon.  Until then I will ignore the little bugger. 

Denial.  Something most Military Wives are good at when we have to do it.

Right now the Husband is blowing up phones and bending ears to get his orders changed to stay here.  I guess no news from is good news.  Usually by this time he is at my desk looking like he is about to blow up.  I have NEVER asked for anything special.  I have been the good Military Wife and PCS’d whenever the Army deemed it necessary.  I never asked questions…I supported whatever the Army threw at us.  This time…I cannot lie down quietly.  My husband went to school to do EOA.  There are much many positions open on this Post.  He is willing to stay here and take one of the positions.  The person that was “helping” him, MSG Shootemup , has tried to help my husband on the funny style.  Meaning he tried to circumvent certain people to get the end result that was desired.  Unfortunately, it has pissed off the one person that has the power to help my husband and his family.  Meaning me and the kids.  This woman (who is the MOST UNPROFESSIONAL government employee in the world) is not hearing any of our circumstances (SON IS A SENIOR, WIFE WORKS FOR GOVERNMENT,WOULD BE A FINANCIAL HARDSHIP, HUSBAND BEING SENT BACK TO A DEPLOYING UNIT…AFTER BEING DEPLOYED 4 TIMES, ETC) and there are many qualifying reasons because basically “she said so“.  You know…I think it is a shame that she is willing to PCS a family across the country (costing the Army money) instead of just letting us stay here and my husband walks across the street to his new position.  If she has something against that particular MSG…then why in the Hell am I suffering because of it??  I am irritated because she asked us to send in all kinds of paperwork showing my Son’s status, my status, all kinds of stuff so she can “think about it“.  If she knew that she wasn’t going to help…why ask for any of these things??  I hate people like that…what goes around comes around and it will get back to her.  Trust me.

Anyhoo…I am ranting…just needed to get this off my chest.  If the husband HAS to go…i will stay here to let the kids finish out the school year and to give me time to get a job there.  It will be like another deployment…no biggie…I have been through 5 (I am counting Bosnia) so this will be nothing.  Unless of course he gets sent to Iraq AGAIN…then will be another issue…

I am surprised I am still married…

Sigh

Sigh…

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…I am off to a Mall in Tucson.  I would have thought the kids would have wanted to come but they do not.  I don’t understand teenagers these days.  When I was a teen I would sing songs of joy when my Mom asked me to come to the Mall with her…that usually meant…CLOTHES!!  Oh well…it will just be me and the husband going to the Foothills Mall.  They have a gadget place that sells the NuWave oven.  I so need that oven….I will also be taking pictures of my adventure today.  I would have rather gone to the Outlet Mall in Las Cruces…but that is a 4 hour drive I don’t feel like making…

I will be back with my new oven and new pull up station!  :)

Later

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